MY personal experience
When I was a kid, my mom was a social worker (and part saint). I remember waiting at her office while she, in my mind, played with other kids. Though my mom didn’t do anything wrong, the experience deeply imprinted on my sensitive and developing mind. I created the belief that other kids were more important than me. As an adult I could intellectually reason with myself. Telling myself that this wasn’t the actual case, but my subconscious brain had latched onto and held this belief for decades. Threading it into my identity, making it difficult to believe anything otherwise. I found myself waiting my turn, by “behaving” and allowing others to go first. After all, I could wait. On one hand this was rewarding because others appreciated and even relied this easy-going characteristic. However, over time, it was destroying my self-worth.
By always waiting for someone to tell me it was my turn and by allowing others to take priority, I was relaying to my subconscious that I wasn’t as important or valuable. Which meant my ideas, problems, voice, needs etc. weren’t as important.
Once I identified my subconscious belief, I isolated the sensations that were aroused when circumstances would present the pattern opportunity again. This is where I would remind myself of my new belief; discharging the old energy sensation & messaging and implementing new energy sensation & messaging. Regulated, the next step was to act! To do something different in order to present and practice a new path for the brain to follow. A new belief is formed and a new trajectory is accessed!
Here are my journal notes: